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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 03:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Can you write a short story with a twist ending?

Put me off passion for life!!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Was to survive, this bastard.

What does it mean to live "the 'underconsumption' life"?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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All the time i was locked up.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

How did you cope when someone you love, dealing with hyper-independence and trauma, felt they needed space to heal alone? Were you able to support them without overstepping, and did you eventually reconnect? How did that journey unfold?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My life is so biszare .

Why do men first look at a woman's chest instead of their face?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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I think the readers, may guess!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I will be 64.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was very sick at this time too.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She loved him until the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I waited trembling.

She wouldn,t have been !

I write beautiful poetry .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My family never makes their pension either.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She married twice! .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And i lived it daily.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im still living with it.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Comes on , in middle age.

I don,t even have a pension.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

This is soul school!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was seconnd youngest,

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

When she asked me how she looked .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He knew the spot.

So whats the point in blame.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We all went to grammer schools

One cannot live in the past .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But it wasn’t much.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was scared of men, in general

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

It was going to be , some day.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I have no regrets .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I said to her

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But, we were locked up after school.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

What did i know ?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Who then, do I blame.?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Ive learnt so much.

Would this be the day?

We were not on the streets..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She found it foreign!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She was in good health!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was 9 years of age.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I couldn’t, believe it.

So, i spoilt her more .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)